I have insurance and can pay for my doctor visits.
I have a mode of transportation to a job.
I am currently typing on my computer.
I have communication with my friend in Japan daily.
I have a great credit score.
I have electricity.
I can read and write, at least somewhat, in 3 languages.
I live in a good neighborhood.
I have love throughout my life from my girlfriend, family, and friends.
It is actually semi hard. I could think of many more things but I did not want to be superficial. We all have things in life to be thankful and grateful for. We should all spend some time thinking about what we do have instead of thinking about what we do not have. It changes your perspective.
I’m 4 days into my workout and so far it’s awesome. It’s hard, really hard and I drip buckets of sweat, but it feels good. I feel productive after. Though I’m sore almost everywhere, I feel healthier and better overall. My flexibility is already increasing. Good all around. If I throw in the vitamins and my awesome diet along with at least 6 hours of sleep a night, I’m doing awesome. Trying to stay away from alcohol for the moment, but if I do indulge, it will be very infrequent, and in small quantities. I’ll update later, can’t wait for the abs :D
These past 2 months for me have been hard and I felt like I needed to vent in a place where I can see what I’m saying. Even before I graduated, I was looking for a job. Since I couldn’t find a full time job and essentially got rejected from JET, a lot of my faith in this world has been shattered. To make things worse, I am working a part time at the YMCA I did without a degree, only this time around I have a degree. I feel degraded. I work 38 hours almost (yet it’s full time) and make crappy wage. Yay college degree. I know things will get better, but rejected application after rejected application takes a toll on me. I have to change something to feel slightly better about the situation pretty regularly. Clean something, organize something, revamp my resume…I’ll do anything to feel that there’s SOME improvement in my life.
Even though I have little free time since I’m either working or tired, I have been thinking about what I really want to happen in my life. I know a full time job is priority number one, but a full time job right now isn’t important in the grand scheme of things which puts me at the question…IS a full time job priority number one? The real priorities are of course grad school and creating a career embedded in a life of purpose. I think a full time job right now would help facilitate that, but then again, I don’t know much right now.
I know that I want a drastic change in my life right now, I just don’t know how to go about it. I guess bite by bite. I want to improve my health, start working out, prepping for the GRE and grad school, and ultimately progressing towards my ultimate goal that I think I figured out tonight. I’ll probably put more thought into it before I post it because I’d prefer it be in a more coherent post. This post seems to be very scattered, probably because I have no idea what I’m trying to say nor what’s really going on in my life. To be continued…
First off sorry for not writing for a while to anyone that cares about this, like me. Lots of things have been happening, very little that I can see the good of yet. Bombed a test, got waitlisted for JET, and will have too pay way too much on a stupid car mistake…I would be lying if I didn’t day i’ve been a little down. So now I am at a point in my life where I don’t really know where to go. I have ideas but not a set path by any means. I have my planned path I suppose but if I have learned anything so far in my journey of life, the future never really looks like I expect it too. I have considered taking a new career route but would take 2 years and some more school which sets me 2 years behind when I’m already behind 1. I don’t know if I should continue on the psychology pathway, go education, try to go healthcare…run away to Japan and teach English heh. There’s so much on my mind and no clear cut way to get answers. It truly feels like the world has been flipped 180 degrees right now. I’d like to try harder on the career stuff but I still gotta balance school for another month. And money…man, I hatethinking about that one. Maybe I should keep praying for the lottery. I suppose the best way to go about this is to keep going forward until something presents itself. I think that’s how these things usually happen. It’d definitely be a ton easier if JET didn’t have the option of popping in anywhere between now and December and being like “Hey, go to Japan or pay for the ticket.” This really limits my possibilities. I’ll make it work somehow. I always do. To end with something happy, Tiesto will be here next weekend! Woo hoo! That is all.